No Regrets.....

Last year one of my kindred spirits, Geanie Finley, 

wrote a tremendously inspiring blog post about turning 50.

I'm not entirely sure that what I'm going to write will be inspiring, 

but it is what's under my top hat,

 so here it goes......

 This week I became 50 years old

 I can say it.

 I can write it.

BUT
It Feels Like A Mistake

 Like some sort of mathematical miscalculation has occurred
OR

 One of those horrid dreams

 in which you find you are still in High School
You don't know where you're supposed to be
You don't recognize anyone

PANIC

( I hate that dream....  

Am I the only one who has that dream??

Sorry. I digress.....)

I've been on this planet since 1963 

So Why Do I feel like I just got here?

 When I see a wide open grassy area

 I still have that urge to turn cartwheels across it

 I still scrutinize a tree's branch configuration

 looking for the best path to climb it.

&

Every Time I'm Near A School Yard Playground

 I HAVE TO SWING

 There seems to be so much child inside me, 

 Everyday I Find

Something new to learn

 Something new I want to try.

So How Can It Be That I'm "50"

I Mean...

Okay Fine 
I'm Flippin' 50

If I Look Back....

Have I wasted time?

There will likely be much less of it in my future.

Have I worried too much about things I can't change?

There is so much beyond my control.

Have I made the same mistakes time after time?

Nothing will ever change, if nothing changes.

Have I lived the standard American dream?

I'm not even sure I've paid attention to what that was.

I guess it comes down to this one answer

I'm Happy!!

And That's Good
Right?? 

Isn't that all any of us truly want??

~To be happy with ourselves

at any given moment.
 ~Loving where we've been &

Embracing the road ahead

~Peace in knowing that you are
Always where you're supposed to be.

~Gratitude for a Life 

Full of, Love, Friendship & Beauty

It's been an evolution
 through all 50 years
through mistakes
through mishaps
through missing out
through.....

 

Getting to Know Myself
finding my imperfect but "true" self
 Liking Who I Found

  

Marrying the Man "I Loved"

not the one with the biggest bank account

 I'd Marry Him All Over Again Too. 

Being Someones Parent

something I swore I'd never do

It Made Me A Better Person
 





Working at Stifling Office Jobs For Years

Hated It....Seriously Hated It

I Changed, Started Anew
Now My Passion is My Job



    

I'm always Afraid

 when I change direction in my life....
BUT

I have always chosen to change anyway

I Just Do It Afraid.

And That is What I Am Most Proud of.

That Little Girl

 who never left me

has served me well.

She whispers to me, encouraging me

to take chances, 

to be brave,

 to go ahead & do it

Everything will be all right

Some might say my attitude is naive

 for a Woman of 50

Perhaps It Is

But so far

I Have No Regrets

Can they say as much??